Sunday night, Sept 20, 2009

Hello Friends !!!!!

I'm back !!!! left off Wednesday night, you know the FBI was here Thursday, long, long story, but long and short of it, Maxim Healthcare, the entire company, 500+ offices throughout USA, is being investigated for fraud, medicare, medicaid, veterans, and they are talking and asking questions of a great many people who were employed in executive positions, it was a scarey experience to say the least, when they left, I had a full on panic attack, the first i've ever had, couldn't move, couldn't speak, left hand and wrist contracted big time, but was over within 15 minutes and back to normal.

Friday, was fairly calm, actually, i don't remember Friday, so i think it was inconsequential but Saturday I went to Streator an went to Faye Murphys house and saw all the family after Faye's funeral, she was really loved by her family. Then, went to Sandy and John Defenbaughs house and spent the evening talking with the girls, solving lifes problems/dilemna's, all to no avail.

today was fairly uneventful until Lauren called, couldn't wake her mother up, went to the neighbors for help, long and short, she overdosed on prescription pain medication, which she's been addicted to for many years, Stan has been aware of this but he is helpless to help her, as no one can help an "addicted" person, but in the past year especially, she has spent most of her waking hours in her room, taking pills, sleeping, and leaving Lauren on her own, to make her own meals, wash her own clothes, has never gotten up with lauren in the a.m. for school, doesn't make sure lauren eats breakfast or even has a lunch.. it just sucks, and tonight I did call DCFS because I am a "mandatory" reporter and there is finally "proof ", no longer speculation, but facts to back our suspicions so Stan can now file for full custody of Lauren and take her away from her mother, in order to work with lauren to straighten her life out.. I had no choice but to report, as i would be liable if this happened again, and in my opinion Lauren has been neglected enough for a lifetime. Sad, sad case, a clinical psychologist in degree with not an ounce of sense, she doesn't have a friend, doesn't have a person who cares about her, in fact, she just took Lauren to the U2 concert, which lauren hated going to, and jimmy buffett many times, nothing but a drug fest for either....sad, sad, sad, but she has done this all to herself, and stan is well rid of her.

Enough about this, but she did completely wreck our suppertime, how rude Amanda is, with this behavior and mental illness, death would be better than having her impact Lauren any longer...

oh, Stan also laid this on me yesterday, he is going to iowa on the 9th of october, only 1 week after my ankle reconstruction, so I have to find someone to come stay for 4 days, and ensure i eat, brush my teeth, potty, and take winston out...he didn't tell me this prior to my scheduling my surgery on the 2nd, and if i can't get a person to come, i must reschedule it again, they are going to think i'm crazy....but, it sucks....all because his 9 year old grandson plays football, which it may be rainy, or the kid may be sick or hurt, he could wait until next year or have went anytime until now, see, just another thing that women can't depend on men for, he has encouraged this surgery for 6 long years, I have finally planned it, it will allow me to walk normally for the first time, since i was 17, and this news....the boy has many years to play football, i don't see it as a big thing, but i don't understand why people get into watching kids do rough things to their bodies anyway... christopher is no more interested in football, but is great at academics, which is more important anyway...and that's what we like.. even Stan gets disgusted at the sports, the high wages people get for abusing themselves and can't even read or count..but, that another story....play football and get dogs to kill one another in dog fights, the american way, speaking of, we don't think that guy should ever get paid to play football again, he should run animal shelters for life..

well, i need to get back in the spirit of life, am really looking forward to getting my ankle fixed, healed, and moving on with life, eager to get my own place, decorate it the way i want, winston, furbie, binky and I, another chapter in my life, which i really love my life, love looking forward to retirement, and spending time with my family and friends and doing some traveling...
only kids in my life will be christopher, ryan and all of your grandkids, which are like my own, most of you anyway..

have a wonderful week, winston says hello !!! he's right here watching t.v. with me, sort of amazing, but i think he really understands the shows...he sure watches......

I am still Winstons mom