Alert! i "think" i'm unsubscribing from Facebook

i think it's for kids, it's just too busy for me with absolutely no directions for anything anyone sends and i can't figure it out, i think it sucks, and takes too much time, i just wanted a place i could find and reconnect with people, it's gotten way out of the box for me...so, email me, write me notes, ease up on the jokes some, i don't have time to read all of them and delete most...if i can't read it in a minute or visually see it, it's gone...and when i have surgery, i definetely won't have the ability to read all this, so notes please, keep it personal, please..

Well, today, the dentist, got 2 root canals, and after 15, yes, 15 shots of novocaine/adrenalin, my heart was going so fast i truly thought it was going to stop, didn't even know novocaine had adrenalin in it, and it was way, way too much for me..so, he won't use that type ever again, but one more to go, next Wednesday as it is still to hot to touch, even after all the shots, it wasn't numb...man, i said, "just pull the fucker out", but it's a molar, and he wouldn't..did you know the molar has "3" nerves???? shit the bed, fred !!!!! I'm just sick of driving east on I 80, kedzie exist south to homewood, to that dentist office, now mind you, he's nice, everyone is nice there, but i hate it...that drilling, shit.

But, then I got home, went to the Creamery and got a real chocolate milkshake, it hit the spot, my reward after torture... and then...Stan nicely, fixed cheeseburgers on the little charcoal grill and i ate the first mushroom/cheeseburger I've eaten in 4 years, with a grilled garlic/butter hamburger bun....i can't usually eat a bun, too doughy, but i did tonight, and it was like dying and going to heaven for me, a nice, juicy tomato slice, you know, Illinois tomatoes from the black soil, mmmmmmmm, not any other like it...so, i'm totally satisfied tonight. Stan fixed them just perfect, not too well done, not too rare, perfecto mundo....wish you were here to enjoy it with me...and i didn't even share with Winston, he's on a dog food strike right now, but, i know, if he gets hungry, he will eat the dog food..He's is watching Criminal Minds right now, just intently, he watches t.v. an awful lot, and i swear, he understands it, too bad he couldn't watch the film , "the matrix" and explain it to me, 3 times i've seen it, still don't get it !!!!!! I think he has a crush on the blonde, Garcia !!!!

what else? had my CBC and CMP drawn today for surgery, will have my ekg next week and then I'm ready, i'm so excited, i just can't tell you, i so much want this to work, for my foot to be normal again, well again, to buy normal shoes again, to walk again, please Lord, let it just be !!!

I subscibed to Eons.com today, a site just made for boomers, and i joined the old hippies group and i "think" i will start blogging there, i'm not sure yet, will let you know...but,it seems more appropriate, i subscribed to two bloggers sites, both women who feel much like I do about a lot of issues, been going to it over a year but just joined today, sent my friend, Darrelle and Lynn an invitation, if you want one tell me, or go to the sight and join, think you'll find it interesting..

In the last few nights, i "tried" to age 60+ chatrooms on yahoo, shoot, just a bunch of bots sending you sex messages to pay for their videos and such, just another bunch of shit....so, i won't do that again, sometimes, late at night, i just would like to enter into an intelligent chat with other adults, not about sex, not about enlarge your penises....but real chat..where are they??? i know, they "must" exist, but where????? don't you get sick of the junk mail, the advertisements you get, that's why i keep one email address just for friends,never, ever give it when i buy anything, nothing....so, please, if you "get" this blog, use only sherrymascal@yahoo.com it's reserved for friends "only". i would like to get away from using any other addresses for friends, and use only that one....then i wouldn't even go to the others anymore and they would fade away...

While i'm on a roll here, how do you like the way yahoo changed, overnight, every time i "try" to send an email, i have to write in some stupid code i can't even read, and constantly a yellow box comes up saying "you've encountered a problem at yahoo, return and try again in a few minutes", and there is no way to "write" to yahoo, and complain, and the address book sucks now...some people have more than one email address and one has to click on each to figure out what is the one they want to send it to....

I think i'm kind of grouchy tonight, i think the novocaine got the best of me today, i still love all of you, in fact, my friend, Jerry, from grade school just wrote on facebook that he LOVES me, now how about that? haven't seen him for 43 years and he still loves me, what a man !!!! think he wants to marry me? NOT !!!!!!

i'll write tomorrow night, maybe i'll even be in a better mood then....maybe i'll have vodka tomorrow night instead of novocaine...but, i still thank Stan for that wonderful Cheeseburger, it is the highlight of the month... sex maybe???????? one can only hope !!!!!!

good night and good luck !!!

It's tuesday night, do you know where your children are??????

i wanted to "introduce" you all to Winston, see, he's real, and he's my newest/bestest boyfriend, he's faithful, loyal, obedient, is affectionate (when i need affection), isn't a bedhog and doesn't snore.

I take him everywhere with me, and he travels well, and he's not a barker, he's a lover, wags his tail at everyone and accepts love from anyone who will offer it, but he's not a male whore.....

so, it's tuesday, the 15th, got word from Dr. Toolen that my surgery is not set for October 2, only in the hospital over night, and see the doc 2 weeks later to get sutures out and cast changed. i must behave, however, follow M.D. orders to the letter, and i will , this time i will, cuz i've wanted/needed this ankle/foot fixed for over 43 years, it's really gotten worse the last 6, now i can't wear a dress shoe anymore, and after this surgery/healing time, i can again.....

so, that's the news here in Mokena, i'm really excited to actually be "doing" this, not thinking about it anymore, i was worried how i'd get around in the nursing home, would they just keep me in a wheel chair all the time? cuz i'd throw myself out and on the floor and pee all over the floor...

This Saturday, my friend, Sandy, is having us girls over for the evening, wish you could all be there, but some of you live a little far for that!!! but, we do have fun when we get together, man bashing, eating, more man bashing, more eating, once we made a cake at 2 a.m., had a taste for it, we're still having sleep overs at heart, and she and her sister, june, have been my friends since we were really little, there's is the first house i played at. And michele, has been my friend since first day of kindergarten, we walked home from school all thru St Mary's days...but she always got to be the teacher when we played school, well it was her house and her stuff, she never ever came over to my house....and we followed greg nycz home every day, we had a crush on him he didn't know we were alive, we were just little kids to him i bet !!! pesty little girls...

So, you know patrick Swayze died last night, i just watched the second barbara walters special with he and his wife, what a pair, what a cutie he was and sooo brave...i will miss him, have seen all his movies numerous times...and will again, he had a great ass !!!! whew, whew !!!!

and he said, something i always say, "we are all terminal, some of just know how long we will be here"....i try to live that way every day, try to remember to be kind to everyone, though sometimes the devil in me gets carried away, and i can be a real bitch....don't like myself then though and wish i could take it right back, but, alas, i can't...which brings me to stan, and him not liking me anymore, i wish he did, but i can't change what i can't change...it's his loss though he doesn't feel that way now, i do think he will miss me and be sorry once i'm gone....it's been a nice 6 years for me, and i just wonder how he sees it so differently...if we are in the same space at the same time and who is missing what??? i don't think i'm missing anything, he's not the easiest person to live with either, but i overlook his tantrums and moodiness, why can't he get past mine and take the good with the bad? enough on that though....

so, how are you doing?? i don't ask about you when i write this, and i am actually writing it for myself but with you in mind too, i think the things you think, but i say em....a little to blunt for some people, but for you strong at heart, it's just fine and you write me that it's fine and you like it....so, i can take all the praise i get every day, it helps my self esteem!!!!!!

I don't have much else to write about tonight, it's the dentist again tomorrow to try to fix this dang tooth, he couldn't numb it the last two times, so tomorrow is his last try, after that, it's the endodontist for me, and lots more $$$$$$$$.$$

I also have a CBC due tomorrow and a CMP, and hope my hct and hgb are going back toward normal, otherwise, it's a transfusion for me, before surgery !!!!

On Saturday, it's a haircut in a.m., Harvest Days in Dwight after that, and then off to Sandy's house.....busy, fun day....i'm gonna let my hair grow back to the silver it is, and let it grow now, i want it blunt cut....and a little longer....what do you think????

Well, Goodnight friends, where ever you are !!! Say a prayer for me, just on principle, cuz i may yet kill that Jim R, from Ottawa, i just may do it !!! he didn't even tell me why???

What a chicken shit he is !!!!!!!!

Sherry Ann

End of the week end

and it's been such a beautiful week end too, such pretty days, warm and sunny, and at night cooler and crisp, and the smells, oh, the smells are so delicious ! I didn't do a thing on Saturday, got up, showered, had coffee and winston and i went back to bed for the morning, and just listened to music and cuddled, and he's such a good cuddler too !

Then, in the afternoon, I read a bit of the book I'm reading, Metro Girl by Janet Evanovich, it's funny and just the right amount of sexuality, she's a funny author, writes about what I would write, check her out sometime, used books at amazon.com are great, then there's the library too...i get books from both, actually, just got the book by Tom Brokaw, called "BOOM" and it's another yet look at the decade of the 60's, which are referred to as the "scizophrenic decade" beginning with the innocence of "leave it to beaver" and "lassie", then the deaths of the Kennedy's and Martin Luther King, the introduction of the hula hoop, drive in movies, then the war, protests, killing of the student's at Kent State, our own cops killed our own students, for just being together and a car back fired, and they shot these kids...to pot, psychodelic episodes, just a huge change in the times in those short 10 years, and we lived through it and were not that aware living in a small town, starting families, we were so innocent yet back then, but, the world was spinning, we understand a lot better now what that war was about, Money, Money, Money !!!!

whew, where did that come from???? i dunno !!!! back to the week end in review for now....
Saturday night was sort of boring, actually, now with stan it's gotten very boring, he doesn't want to do anything any more, just fall asleep in his chair with his mouth open and snore so i can't hear t.v. lol

so, saturday, i had the satellite connection moved from Laurens room to the room i'm in now, in anticipation for the surgery, but just for now so i have a place of my own to go, Stan never wanted the t.v. in the bedroom, he's bothered by a little night light...so, now in my own room, i play my own radio, listen to my own t.v., and snore myself to sleep in peace and i just love it...
I had forgotten how nice it is to just sleep by yourself and not hear another person, not feel them move around, go to the potty during the night, or hear them get up before your ready to, so, i'm happy !!!!

Today, Winston and I went for a long ride, he loves to go bye bye with his mommy, then home to read, and i fixed the coolest meatloaf this p.m., I made the mixture as always, onion, egg, garlic, bread crumbs and salt/pepper, tomato sauce, but, this time, i made muffin pan size balls, baked at 350 for 40 minutes, then made a glaze out of tomato sauce, worshteshire sauce and guldens mustard, mixed it all together, and painted it on the balls, and let it stay in the oven for about 10 more minutes, and it was just yummy, little individual meatloafs, from 2.3 # of ground round, i got 24 balls, baked 12 and put the other 12 on a cookie sheet in the freezer to freeze, now put them in a bowl for next time. will thaw them in the fridge for a day and then bake them, so the work is done for the next time already...

Sandy called tonight, and the girls get together is at her house, next Saturday night in the country south of streator, call her for directions, you have her number if your local and invited, or if you want to go, call me and i'll give you her phone number...it's gonna be a lot of fun, and we will celebrate my upcoming surgery and impending split from stan, a fun night, and i "plan" to spend the night in Streator, so spend it with me !!

I also have changed my mind about the surgery, not to cancel it, but move it up, will call the doc tomorrow and let them know, i'm ready whenever they are, i was gonna wait till the end of october, but i want it sooner, i want to begin healing asap, and get on wih life, my foot has slowed me down and stopped me for years from doing things, and my friend, Darrelle and I decided Friday night, we are going to Europe, i've wanted to return since Justine and I left, and when my foot/ankle is fixed, i can do just that....why wait? till we "save" the money, that will never happen, so, we both figure we will just charge it, and if we die before we pay it off, who cares????? in fact, my new theory is just this: if you want something, or want to do something, do it for yourself, not for anyone else, you don't "need" someone to go along with you, your memory of it is just that, "your" own memory, life is so short...i'm changing the way i look at things from now on, a more positive outlook, and I'm doing what "I" want to do, other than breaking the law, and I don't want to break any laws, but, no one can get blood out of a turnip and i don't have a thing, oh, furniture and a dog, but, no property, and i probably won't have any, no savings, and i won't have any, will live from check to check for the rest of my days, as most americans do, and if i can't take care of myself, the damn government will just have to, i've paid my dues, haven't you????? just be smart and protect what you do have from the IRS or anyone else, for your kids sakes, and screw it and have fun !!!!!
so, back to my ankle, i'm getting it fixed as soon as the doc has an open slot, i'll let you know next blog when that will be, so, cross of October 30 for the flowers and chocolates, it will be sooner...

Well, i don't have anything more interesting to write tonight, but next few days are promising to be busy at least....doc appt on Tuesday, lab and dentist on Thurs, Harvest Days on Saturday daytime and sandy's that night, with good friends, I hope, or not...at least Sandy, June and I will be there, and we always have fun bashing men!!! If your not there, we will bash you toooo, so best be there !!!!

I find i'm really ansty to get packing and get moved, to just decorate a place of my own, my own tastes, arrangements, no criticism, the music i like, and just winston and i, it's gonna be nice, where ever i end up...you will be able to call 24 hours a day then, no 10:15 cut off, i answer 24 hours a day and like to get up and go out for coffee at 1 a.m. and such !! FREEDOM !!
No curfew, no rules, restrictions, and no make up on days i don't want to put it on....

I think your pretty lucky to know me, cuz, if i send this to you, i would do anything for you, anytime, all you need do is ask, and the door is always open to you....

you have a terrific week, this week and look for me again soon, i haven't recieved any letter from you for a while, and i'd sure like one...

Sherry and Winston