Hello Friends !

It is certain, fall is upon us, it's kind of cold outside tonight and rainy, lightning and thundering,
it's been a dreary day, but winston is happy no matter what the weather, and he got a porterhouse bone tonight to chew on, made his day complete.

I had surgery on my left outer leg Wednesday to remove the melanoma area, doc says she got all the margins, sutured it right up, but told me to sort of stay off of it so it doesn't split open, if it does, it will take skin grafting andyou all know how beautiful my legs are, so i don't want another scar !

We hope Saturday is kind of nice, there is going to be over 100 fancy, fancy cars in Mokena for the Concourse d Elegance, and the food /wine festival, big flea market too, lots of people will be here.

So, have you seen Oprah ???? wearing that ugly orange dress in copenhagen, golly she is HUGE now !!!! bet she's been eating lots of carbohydrates, where did her health cooks go? did she fire them??? and what does she possibly have to do with the olympics???? actually, I feel Chicago needs to totally clean up their act, stop the daily violence, they don't need olympics, they need the army ! speaking of, did you see the article i wrote for the Ottawa/Streator paper and it was published, about the continuous reporting of bad things about Streator, I'm just sick of it...aren't you??

well, they arrested a 30 year old man for the multiple murder in beeson, il, he was married to one of the daughters, how sad and how sick he is !!!! to murder 5 people, by beating them to death, people are just sick these days,

Tomorrow Michael Moores newest movie starts, my friend, Darrelle and I will go see it sometime this week end, will prove interesting, i for one, enjoy Michael Moore, I know he's a movie maker, but he speaks the truth too.

i was in a dollar general yesterday, they now have Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas items/ decorations for sale, all at once....i think there should just be "holiday" stores, that carry items year around, all available all the time !!!!

ya know, on days i don't leave the house, nothing interesting happens for me to write about, when i stay home, the only person i see is crabby stan and happy winston, not much variety there, is there? do you have variety in your life??? i hope so, somedays I talk to Justine, and those are good days, she always makes me smile and once in a while Ryan is even yapping, he's so cute when he talks, always something new.

tomorrow i'm going to make some oatmeal cookies or chocolate chip, i don't know, but if you come see me, we'll have milk and cookies for breakfast, lunch and dinner....isn't that enticing???

I haven't mentioned Jim any more, he's gone, out of the picture, was thrilled to see me, for about 2 weeks, that didn't last long, he's a sick man, mentally, physically, basically just a man, but, I did feel good about meeting him after all these years, maybe in the next life, oh well, his loss.. I have so much to give, offer, do for the right man, but where is he? i do not want to live with another man, ever, but would like one just to hang out with now and then, have sex with now and then...but, no more overnighters with any man again, it's just not worth it, an make up is a pain in the butt to wear every day..

well, another thurday gone, the week end looms, and time for bed, i'm tired and didn't accomplish a thing today, how was your day?

Goodnight, sweet dreams !!!

windy day? do you feel it tooo???

Happy Monday night !!!!!!

where did today go? Seems like i just got up, and it's almost time for bed !!! made "hamburger Stroganoff" tonight, and it was "good", first time i used ground beef instead of sirloin steak for it, and it was yummy, accompanied by Nooldes Romanoff, mmmmm noodles with butter and garlic, parmesan cheese mixed in blended with wide egg noodles, a real treat, and today i felt like making a Coconut Meringue Pie too, and the meringue was high and fluffy and goooood.

Today the dermatologist called, i faxed her a note early a.m., but it was her first day back from vacation, and i thought it would be a few days till i heard from her, but she was a nurse before she is a doctor, so she's great, common and ordinary and really pretty too.. she said, "you need to have this surgery as soon as possible and wednesday is open at 11 a.m., to have a "MOHS procdure" and a female, a Dr. Pepitone is going to do it, gail doesn't have any opening and she doesn't do the MOHS, its going to take up to 5 hours, because they are going to cut the spot thinly, stain it, take it to pathology and check for the margins, will continue until they see no cancerous lesions and have clean margins, so it will be a neat, slow process, said to bring a book, and they have a t.v. and dvd player, so i have a couple of movies i'm taking too. Sutures must be in for 2 full weeks, for some reason, so tomorrow i will call Tanya at Dr. Toolens and schedule the ankle surgery i guess by Oct 30, and will plan to be up and around and out dancing by April, thats the plan, giving me plenty of time to recuperate fully and get new spring shoes !!!!!

We haven't heard a word from Amanda, know she checked herself into the pyschiatric ward at Palos Hospital, no news is good news, but I think Lauren is wondering and just won't ask anything at all. I know this is hard on her, and she is being brave, but seems sad at the same time. the picture on top is her and winston last year when we brought him home, lauren is 12 now, but still looks the same, only taller.

Not much else to write about tonight, it was overall a non eventful day, things are quiet around here, haven't even argued with stan for quite a few days, he's overwhelmed and i'm being quiet, i know you shocked, but it's the truth by golly !!! when i cook, i'm happy and keep to myself !!!

well, i need to write a letter, and play on facebook for a bit, lots of friends have contacted me and i'm happy about that !! i love people, i love life !!!!!!!

windy day? do you feel it tooo???

Where did 3 days go?????

well, it went, didn't it !!!!! and goodness, time does fly right past and I seem to waste so much of it, i'm not being productive right now at all, seem to be in limbo or at some type of standstill, just spending time waiting, and i'm not sure what i'm waiting for. my ankle, my melanoma surgery, Amanda (stan's ex) to get her shit together and clean her act up, Stan to chill and be nice again, i know he has pressure, with ginger dying slowly, lauren being totally neglected by her mother, and his deciding he doesn't like me(women) any longer, the outcome of the FBI investigation of that shitty place i worked for a year, Maxim, who has defrauded the state, federal and veterans out of loads of money, the entire company, all 500 offices, whether i can work as a nurse any longer, or if i resort to what every woman has to offer for money....$$$$$ need i be clearer about that? but, i'm old now, and would only get money for housecleaning or something ! a service, that is..

Wow ! a tornado warning is crossing the screen, kind of weird, isn't that? oh, well !

Today, my friend, Darrelle and I went to the Forrest Park art fair and had lunch at Francesca's, and had a nice, relaxing day, she has become a good friend and is easy to talk to, she's heading to Paris in two weeks with her sisters, yeah for her ! Wish i were going tooo, but, maybe in the next 5 years or so !!!!

So, news regarding my tooth, still have one more nerve to remove, the regular dentist has tried 4 times, after many, many Novocaine shots he referred me to an endodontist and they want a $300.00 deposit before i see him, which i don't have, my insurance "will" pay but they don't care, so for now i'm stuck with a perpetual toothache or getting my top molar pulled, which neither nor my dentist wants to happen, so what to do??? i just don't have the money, unemployment is just enough to pay my share of the house bills, nothing extra, and this tooth is just killing me...but, can't have a benefit for a tooth, or can I ?

Went to Christophers school Friday a.m. for grandparent day, had a continental breakfast and went to class with chris for a bit, he had questions he needed to ask his gramma and we drew pictures of ourselves, and it was fun, he is so good in school and he was happy to have his gramma there with him, and gramma was glad too. then it was lunch with my friend Virginia, we call her vagina, for short, and she is always fun to see, chippers so i ran into many old friends, even frannie Cherveney, which i just got a video from paul studnicki on thursday with kids in 1965 ice skating at marilla park, and frannie was in it, so i emailed it to her and made her day complete !

so, what are you looking forward to for this week? the weather is taking a certain turn cooler, just in time for autumn, remember when we actually wore fall clothes, wool skirts and sweaters? they were really pretty in all those rust, brown, blue and green colors, wish they would come back in style again, don't you??? The leaves will start to fall soon, leaf burning smells will be in the air, there will be fireplaces lit in the evening, all nice things, and....pumpkin pies, pumpkin ice cream, pumpkin muffins and cake...mmmmmm can you tell pumpkin is my favorite of all, and we only think of it in the fall, don't we?

Fall shows have started, Curb your Enthusiasm is back on HBO, which i just love, and brothers and sisters on abc, also another one i like, it's a soap opera, but still i like it, don't you? what are your favorites to watch? and soon it will be time to start Christmas shopping, again, no $$$$, as usual, but, i am tole painting again, and gonna do the sleds kathy meredith gave me to do some years ago, finally will do them, have ideas and washed them in murphy's oil soap and will begin tomorrow to make them gorgeous for winter display!!!! they were kathy's and her sisters sleds in childhood, so, it will be great fun and she will appreciate them finally !!!

well, it's almost time for bed, another night of dreaming of having great sex with someone, but i can't ever see who he is, but he's tall and muscular and hot for me....that's what counts, i don't care who he is but i like him !!!! he doesn't stay to have coffee in the a.m., and i don't have to wash his clothes, my idea of the perfect lover !

so, Goodnight for Sunday night, i'll talk to you all sooon !!!

Winston's mom !!!!! he's still here and just loves me to death, and i love him tooo.