Day 6

Golly, it's going to be a week tomorrow since I started blogging, what a difference a week makes !!!! My tooth !!!! it's still throbbing, it's back to the dentist for me in the morning, he didnt get the right tooth, or the right place and i'm going out of my mind, it's making happy me into a crab ass,everything is banging, y jaw, my head, my body, even winston is staying away from me now.

well, i just got back from taking another pain pill, did the beginnings of supper, we're having stuffed peppers tonight, easy to chew and digest. My day was unevenful, mailed social security my stuff, so, it's settled, i have applied, not ready for the easy chair yet, but getting ready, gosh, i don't like the feeling of this anymore than i liked the arrival of the AARP card, but guess i'll get use to it, sure use the aarp card for lots of useful stuff, ie the movies, starbucks, dairy queer, mcdonalds, amazon.com and barnes and noble, not to mention all the nights i book myself for all the vast masses of young studs i take to the notel motels.....lol. yes, i've even done that lately, posted on match.com for/and in "headlines" wanted a "mature" man, not relationship phobic, who wants a no strings attached friendship to date, fix my plumbing, ( the real plumbing) not the personal...and know what I get !!!!!! notes from 30 year olds saying they are "attracted" to mature women, now, look, if i wanted a son bad enough i'd have borrowed one of yours, I do not want "young" , under 58 !!!! and one even said, "i have 13 inches", i told him to put that right between his legs and up his ass !!!!!!! of course, he is also "not" caucasian, which i listed as a priority, no towel heads or camel jockies for me !! not in this life....
so, looks like winston is my main man, but he can't hold a screwdriver or hammer, can't learn it either, so, i guess he will just be a "kept" man, and is he ever affectionate, all the time, also, though, can't spoon either....
so, guess what Stan the man and i did last night? went to a screening at the Gene Siskel(yes the dead movie critic) Theatre for the Arts, and....it was very, very hoity toity, but oh, so informational, many, many univ of chicago professors were there, and guess who I sat "next" to !!!!!! none other than David Axelrod, Barack's main advisor, his campaign manager, and....he shook my hand, and conversed with me. oh, and the director, ooooh lala, silver hair, cute, nice butt in his jeans...it was a documentary about Michael Phleger, the pastor of St. Sabina's, south side catholic church and father mike was there tooo, and answered every single question, about his activism, about Martin Luther King, Farrakhan, even al sharpton, and it was good, it made me even respect him more, all we see is the radical on the news, he's much more than that, and I am going to make a trip this Sunday to attend a Mass at his church, i've wanted to do that forever, so I will. Carol Marin was there, Bob Sirrott, Phil Ponce, to name just a few, and all part of the crowd that paid 10.00 a seat....
To say the least, Jim Rinaldi sure disappointed me, he sure came on strong, was thrilled about getting to know me, seemed to really like me, then poof/bang, he was gone in only 3 weeks, it didn't take long to show his true colors, guess those Ottawa guys have never gotten out of that mentality, so be it !!!! I think he has more deep issues that i'm interested in, thanks to Mike Nelson, the counselor that helped me, and if he could help me, then he could help anyone, i'm convinced.
So, tomorrow is September 1, soon time for the fall/winter clothing, and for my new life to begin, another phase, and what will it bring???? at least i know i'm not dead yet, cuz i'm actually looking forward to the next 30 or so years of my life, maybe i will really find where i belong, maybe i'll finally write a book, even if it's just for you, for my friends, it will be interesting, and before i die, I'm going to tell you everything, all the things i've kept from you all these years....oh, yes, there is more !!!! believe me, my life has been anything but dull, i've gotten into some very strange, weird, dark places and then right out into the sunlight, blue skies, rainbows, life is just about all that, we hide things that we don't want out there, but hey, none of us is perfect, well except Sally Artman, and none of us ever have to be ashamed of anything at all, it's just life and all the experiences it brings with us, we're only human, each and every one of us look in the toilet at our crap before we flush, we all pick our noses, and have bad breath in the morning, so we're all equal. Even you, who are saying, no i'm not, right at this time, you are tooo, and your special if i choose to send this to you, very special, at least to me, you have a place in my heart and head, every time i see something that reminds me of you, think of something that you and i experienced, misspell or mis punctuate a word, or phrase, cry, laugh, hurt, see something we've shared or had in common, your right there.
guess i'm not too funny today, my tooth hurts too much and my brain is turned off right now to humorous phrases and anecdote, i promise tomorrow will be better, i'll have him pull the damn tooth if necessary, but for now, have to go drown myself in vodka or kuhlua or something bad for me, so good bye to you and good bye to August 2009, what a month of highs and lows for me !!!! To Tuesday then, good evening !!!!!!