Aug 30 Day 5

It's 1:30 p.m. so far a very uneventful day, showered, put make up on, for Winston, had a light lunch and chocolate ice cream and laid back down..
then wrote Jim an addendum to the first note I wrote him telling him, Good bye fucker! read some emails, read some of my book, now downstairs to write a little, going to the post office to mail the note before I change my mind, and Stan and are I going into the City to a movie about Father Michael Phlegar, the controversial priest from the south side, think it will be interesting and something for the head to think about, tomorrow will be a new day and with it what adventures will come my way???
I am, however, beginning to "plan" for my future, take a look at options, will check daily to see if any money has arrived, if not, i'll be stuck here for a while, no one will pay me for my charm and grace, lol, but that tin can is looking better every day. Guess I will begin to gather the dreaded boxes for yet another move, how many boxes have I accumulated in my life? and next weeek, I'm off to Florida to help/accompany my best friend on earth home, so she and I are starting out all over one more time, we're good at this, so why be surprised? well, we aren't but others always are!!! but we have really found ourselves over the last few years, have been independent of what others think, advise us to do, and have decided on our own !!!! and, damnit, people still like us, better yet, we like ourselves more !
I did, shower and shave my legs and pits today, amazing, and just for me, cuz i'm the only one who will rub them, feel them, and I like it, think i'll get duded up for the city this afternoon, and when i see myself in a reflection, i'll say, "well, you look nice today!" such small things make me happy !!
this Jim thing really blew my mind, and it's not at all like me, but it came out of nowhere, went nowhere and damn it, i'm mad about it...but, you won't have to hear about it much longer, I say, to myself, "get over it or under it" so i will do just that!
September is Tuesday, can you even believe it? football games, chili, hot tea, and wonderful smells abound, and Marcia's birthday !!!! Guess she's catching up with me, but, i'll always be older than her !!
Time soon to put everything to sleep, the flowers, the summer clothes, the birds will go to their winter homes, stores will have christmas stuff in by the middle of the month , why????? and, what will i do with the christmas tree i bought from QVC a couple of years ago? leave it for stan? NOT...and what about the king size bed i paid half of? guess I'll cut it right in half, and take my half to LaSalle county...novel idea... and half a sheet, and half a comforter???? and one curtain out of two..??
what can i find that is humorous today to write about?? maybe when we get home I'll have seen something in the city, that's always humorous, the gay people, the homeless people, the street musicians? , the cubs or sox? they are humorous, make all that money and can't hit a dang little ball, maybe i'll have a martini this afternoon and fall down, that might be a laugh!!! but you won't be here to laugh with me, so thats a bummer and stan would leave me lay ! then I'd shoot him, that would be a funny vision. oh, i wrote to Dan Gaefke, state trooper i went to school with and he's head of the firearm's division, and told him Jim takes an antidepressant and has lots of guns, it's illegal to do both, so they will take it, thats funny !!! payback is a motherfucker !!! break my heart/ego, and see what ya get !!!!!
well, check back later, we'll be home by 9, so i'll write more then, maybe something really funny will happen or come about, i can make anything funny, i think, but others don't seem to see my humor the way i do, maybe we'll see a funeral/wake and i keep baggies with me for leftovers, some soul food would hit the spot at about 10 p.m. tonight....we have that to look forward too, i call it substitute for meals on wheels, sooon we'll have a funeral every day, some zip lock bags for a light meal in the evening, and better than that institutional food anytime, and fall is best, people really make all their great recipes for the dead !! kind of funny, isn't it????
till then...i'm still....

Winstons mom