week 2, day 2

so, hi, again, i'm back !!!!

last night i had a dream, i was in a wedding, i don't know who's it was, but the other bridsmaids wouldn't let me near the mirror to put my make up on, and the bride said i couldn't wear two pair of earrings, i have double pierced ears, so i had to take one pair off, and this a.m., when i woke up, i had taken one pair of earrings off and put them on the night stand...really weird, and the whole wedding party, including a former account manager was on a float....brother, and i didn't even eat late last night...

so, today, i met Jim, and we went and sat and shared soup and talked, really talked earnestly....he knows he's in an unhealthy place for himself, knows it's best if he leaves it, his health will improve, stress does unhealthy things to people and he has myasthenia gravis, an autoimmune disease of the nervous system the stress reaks havoc with, and he and i know we are blessed to happen upon one another at this time in our lives...but he needs baby steps, and you know me, i'm spontaneous, go great balls afire at everything...it usually works out, but this time, i have to let it be if it's gonna be..and that is very hard for me, but, he wants me......you know what i mean.....and i won't, will not, until he makes a firm decision. now, i'm not talkin marriage here,i will never marry again, not ever, i will die as Sherry Mascal, but, hey i can always play house and i do good at that...so, for once, i will just be hard ( impossible) to get until it's my way and i told him, "my way or the high way", I learned my lesson well, finally.....

So, next week, I'm going to florida, either alone and flying or with Jim, and we'll drive, he has until saturday to decide....but no sex on the way.....or there, not at all....so, i'll keep you informed and i'm okay with it, either way.

Saturday night is cruise night in streator, golly, all those people, just to do what we did every single night...memories.....

winston has learned a lot of new words, he's sooo smart...he makes different noises for different things, and we understand him, i just love this guy!!!
my brain is getting better, every day, it gets better, but i get older too, so i forget what i knew yesterday.....do you forget much??? what do you do?? now, i know, my friend, Marcia, was ready for this, cuz she's written notes since we were 20.....oh, her birthday is the 26th i think, gotta remember that, and you can all wish her a happy birthday, don't let her know though, cuz she might forget, she's gonna be (60) this year.....sshhhh
but, i write notes,then i can't find them....or i forget the shopping list, it's always on the counter...

did you get gas before the holiday week end? i know the bastards will raise the price just for us to go to walmart and stuff....well, i won't buy gas till tuesday now..and did you hear, they are shutting chicago down for Oprah???? the nerve of them...they don't even close for barack !!!!
and i wanted so badly to shop at crate and barrel or nieman marcus !!!! NOT !!!!!
michigan ave will be closed for her 24th season premiere show...big deal !!!!!!

have you seen Julie/Julia, oh, it's a great,great movie, we laughed and laughed, meryl streep at her very, very best...even if you don't like to cook, it's about much more than cooking, you get to know julia's life....and she was a natural hoot !!!! see it, i highly recommend it and give it ****** (6) stars !!!!

well, i had an exceptionally boring night tonight, reruns....all reruns of reruns....
i'm going to a high school football game tomorrow night and see Lauren(stans 12 year old) play trombone at her first game with the high school band, to introduce the kids to the funner kids....so, that will be fun, maybe....but the popcorn will be good, and i'll sneak a flask in of kuhlua/cream.....

i decided, since Jim took a dump on me, last week, to post on match.com got some interesting conversations going on, but that's all, gotta stay in the game....have some dinners, movies, fun times, don't ever let them get you down i say !!! now jim is back, but with some competition.....ooh lala....

what else??? not much for tonight i fear.....and what do you fear??? are you afraid of being alone????? tell me your fears, i will soothe your weary mind....i have powers.....many powers.....
i'm a good listener !!! so, talk to me, keep your cards and letters coming and i'll get to all of them....

so, good night, winston is in his box already sooooo it's just me